Wow! Time has really gotten away from me. My life took a crazy turn and I can’t seem to get it together. I won’t go into details but I lost my job as well as the place I was living and ended up having to move back in with my parents who live on the other side of the country from where I was. I had to sell most of my stuff and move into their very crowded spare bedroom. I’m not handling it well. My mind is still completely scattered and I can’t get it working again.
I think I finally understand what the problem is though. My desk and my bed were where I did everything. All of my creative expression happened in these two places as well as a large part of my morning ritual and these two objects became grounding objects for me. Having to sell these two things that I worked very hard for and were important parts of my life began, kind of a tailspin. Due to losing these grounding objects I basically gave up my grounding techniques as well. I lost that whole grounding system and don’t have a replacement. I have to come up with more portable grounding objects and techniques. That means an overhaul of my rituals.
I’m not sure what I’m going to end up doing but I’m going to start with creating a new morning ritual. I completely stopped doing my last one when all of this happened because it was too long and complicated. I’m going to simplify it and attempt to come up with something that has a higher impact.
Then I’m going to work on my planner. I was having some trouble with it before all of this and even more now. It doesn’t need an overhaul but it needs tweaking to be truly useful again.
They say that the only constant in life is change. I seem to take a long time to adapt to some changes. It throws me off and makes me feel like I’m flailing. I need to come up with something else that can be constants in my life to keep me grounded.0